Things are still looking up though have lots of cramping. This is the longest I have ever been I believe. Here’s to Faith & Hope.

Keep having cramps. I hope this does not mean that I am getting my period but sadly I guess so.

I started cramping today, and my bloating started going down. I even start losing some of that extra water weight from the ICSI / OHSS. Sounds like I am getting my period and the fact that OHSS symptoms are going away does not bode well.

My dad left today, and Owen had to go back to the Isle of Mann. How will I cope tomorrow?

The 2 week wait is going to be long. I cannot wait, yet it is all I can do. I have decided to occasionally take 2 rather than just 1 folic acid tablet. The best care for my babies. I also take other stuff like milk, progesterone tablets, Metformin and of course Thyroxine.

We go to the clinic and I am full of intrepidation. I want to leave rather than be told they will not give me my embryos. I know its silly but it feels more controllable. I finally have to go in. Maxine is there and she wants to show us our embryos. Out of the 4 we have 3 perfect ones – grade 1-2 and one not so good at 3-4 cells. The embryos Maxine has chosen are around 8 cells. We see one of them split. It was so emotional. At that point Owen and I knew we had to name them, like we had name Hilo & Lohi. We called them Faith & Hope because it was all we had.

The whole procedure went very smoothly. I could feel them being transferred. It was amazing. For a moment in time, I was pregnant. I felt overjoyed.

I feel a bit better but it will all be dependant on tomorrow. Sadly I have OHSS symptoms, so I fear they may not replace the embryos. I promised to tell them of any signs, but I have to say I did consider not mentioning them. But I am not sure it would be worth it as being pregnant and dead is very pointless!

We headed towards home. The injection now seems to have worn off. The drive seemed really bad, but much better than cycle 2 and better than cycle 1 too. At least I had some energy. My dad arrived today. I could not go for him at the airport so Owen did. I was in too much pain. If it works it would be worth every moment of pain.

Raj called us this morning. They were able to inject 17 eggs. 12 Fertilized. They froze 8 and kept 4 out to grow. I hope they grow well.

We had 24 eggs from our 40+ follicles.

We stayed at the Holiday Inn Express in Stratford again. I felt pretty good. I did drink a whole lot of water 7 litres in fact. I even got so thirsty that when we ran out of water I tried to drink tap. Could not manage it though. Tasted of chemicals. Though I did manage to go downstairs in the middle of the night and buy some. Who cares that it was at rip of prices and that they did not have enough change, so I left it! I needed water. I just could not sleep all through the night.